Lur

I really do love rice crackers. That's an important observation.

Ugh, guilt. Let us linger for one moment on the destructive and ever-decreasing spiralling nature of guilt. Guilt is by its nature a selfish emotion, since it requires one to wallow in one's percieved wrongdoing and often not do anything to rectify the first slight. Guilt nags at you and saps you and makes you feel so squirmingly nasty that it's hard to think of anything outside the box of guilt anyway. What causes guilt may not even be a genuinely considered decision; rather, a spur of the moment choice when something nice but selfish was offered to you; a brief flood of happiness followed by the cringing realisation that you didn't conisder the ramifications. Guilt precludes selflessness, that state to which we should all aspire. Guilt is NOT NICE.

Now, should one always consider others to the point where one has nothing for one's self? To do so does undeniably feel good, but in that strange self-righteous way. Look how philanthropic *I* am. Worse and worse. Yet if doing something for one's self means a) you feel bad and b) you lose out on something better if rather more readily available then...what?

Sometimes I think no matter what you choose, you will never get it right. Sometimes, there is no good (or bad) option. So you will feel guilty no matter what you choose. It's just a case of at whom you wish to direct the guilt.